Imagine the power of letting go and trusting God through every season. There are seasons in life where we hold tightly to things God may be asking us to release. Letting go can feel uncomfortable whether it’s expectations, control, relationships or plans we envisioned for ourselves. Often, it’s in the act of surrender that we make space for God to move in ways only he can. I learned the power in letting go isn’t about giving up, it’s about trusting that God’s plans are greater than our fears. His timing will always lead us exactly where we’re meant to be.

Introduction

Between the months of May-December 2024 my husband and I experienced what felt like the absolute hardships of life. This was the most challenging and trying year we had ever gone through financially, spiritually & emotionally. If doubt settled in our hearts it would be impossible for God to do what only he could do. All we wanted was peace in our minds. Discovering the power of letting go and trusting God through every season developed a faith-filled act of surrender. Then came spiritual growth, and a newfound peace in God’s plan.

Sudden Change

It was May 2024, the first year my husband and I had ever gone without medical insurance. We learned that we were expecting and while we were so excited we were filled with extreme financial anxiousness. One September morning, as I was sitting in traffic, on the highway, at a complete stop when suddenly I was rear-ended by 2 cars. The accident resulted in me being hospitalized. I was diagnosed with a pelvic bone bruise from the seatbelt. At the time, I was 23 weeks pregnant & just became anxious all over again about finances. 

By the end of September, I found myself back in the hospital experiencing the most excruciating pain. I was in and out of the hospital by this time with unanswered questions. My doctor ordered that I be placed on bed rest until after delivery. I ended up being off work for 6 months, as my maternity leave came to an end in March 2025. Only 2 months were paid at 70% of my salary. I underwent a few ultrasounds that were unable to determine the cause of my pain. Later, I was advised to undergo a CT scan. This procedure would ensure answers to my questions & provide slight relief. The downside of this were the dangerous rays that could potentially delay growth in the baby. I was weary at first however, with prayer & faith my husband & I agreed & rebuked anything negative from affecting our baby.

Crazy Faith

Once the results were in, it was determined that I had a 5mm kidney stone in my right kidney. Unbeknownst to me, 1 in every 200-1500 pregnant women experience a kidney stone. I was told that it was impossible to pass on my own, & my doctor suggested that I get a nephrostomy tube to drain my kidney & prevent kidney removal. They gave me only 24hours to make a decision. I grieved in that moment the ideal pregnancy I dreamed of however, I could not give up. That wasn’t an option. My faith prevailed & I declined the procedure & was discharged. I went home studied, worshipped and drank my water. By the grace of God, I was able to pass the kidney stone on my own – 2 weeks prior to delivery.

During this time, I struggled greatly with trusting the people closest to my husband & I. Numerous heartbreaking events occurred but God knew what was best & separated me from the group. Delivery came. While I was hurt, I had just given birth to my husband & I’s first child – a sweet baby boy. Lying in the hospital bed post delivery, I frequently checked my-mychart as I was uninsured. The balance continuously increased until I saw a grand total of $51,307 from visits, hospital stays, labs, etc. You can imagine how I felt.

I did not feel stressed surprisingly. We released all control that we thought we had & laid it at the feet of JESUS. There was instant trust in God to take care of it. I tried many times prior to apply for Medicaid knowing I would not get approved. After delivery I reapplied after realizing I was not working at the time & I was approved. All of my medical expenses back dated 6 months were paid in FULL.

Worked Together for Our Good

I say all that to say, you cannot tell me Jesus isn’t real. HE has shown me time & time again that his word is true & that he is alive. No one could ever make me doubt him. God had allowed us to go through many stages of grief financially & emotionally. Presently, I can say proudly that God has restored everything we lost. From cars, community & our minds. He’s even brought us a newfound love & respect for one another. We got through the toughest time in our life & it couldn’t have happened without our Lord & Savior. God has graciously given me beautiful friends & sisterhood that I’ve always dreamed of. He blessed us with a chance to start fresh & an unwavering faith.

Give Up Control

I learned that you cannot have faith & still be in God’s way. Trust is giving up control that we do not have & placing God in the role only he can be in. God also had to point out the areas where I lacked & used that to mature me & grow me.

If you are in a hard season, do not look to the left or to the right. Look straight ahead on your Heavenly Father & know that his word is true & does not lie. Get in the habit of recognizing that you have no control & lay those burdens at his feet. The battle is not yours, it is the Lord’s 2 Chronicles 20:15.